Just when I thought the animal inside me was hibernating, I feel the strange untangible feeling that it is awaking, that the dark, horrible part of me I always try to hide is crawling, surfacing into me and rotting my heart once more.

I don't know what is happening to me, but I fear that I'm evolving into a new, darker stage of my life, a stage that I once expected to be full of light and hope. Now I notice that I am left all alone in the dark, intoxicating myself in it's pungent aroma that rots my heart's core and withers my spirit.

I feel like all the hope and all the happiness I once had is starting to leak away from me the way blood oozes from an open wound. I feel the need to close my eyes and cry, but I feel no tears left and no voice in me to mouth all the words that I want to let out, the words I want someone to hear and then aid me, but I can't plea and I can't beg for help. I can just only sit and stare in absolute horror at the pitch black darkness that is taking over me once again.

I know that this time, I can't escape the wolf that bares its teeth at me, the one that makes me harm myself, the one that makes me think the most gruesome thoughts ever imagined, the one that makes me feel empty and thoughtless, the one that drains all the spirit from me like a thirsty leech. I can only let it take me away, let it make me miserable, let it make me suffer, because it is a part of me that will never go away and a part of me that will always stay to harm me. It has awakened...